Feelings I shouldn't be having...

I get on FB this morning and read that one of my friends surprised her hubby with a trip to Vegas for his 40th. Instead of being extremely exited for her for pulling off a great surprise, she had 3 of his friends pick him up at 4:30am to take him to the airport! I am instead bummed and hurt for Travis that he wasn't invited. Now how dumb is that. I mean it put me into a super slump all day long!! I can't pull myself out of it... (Maybe it is just hormones.)

But it isn't my business who was invited on the trip but I just know the moment he walks in the door tonight he is going to be super deflated and walk around the house moping and I would too if I was him. The 4 men that went are ones that he consider his good friends. He would have had a BLAST! We hung out with them all last week as a couples party so I can totally understand why he would be hurt. It is just like a kick in the gut, because it makes me feel like we just aren't good enough, still. I know once again dumb thoughts but they are the ones I am having... UGH...

Then when they return all we will hear about is what a great time they had and they will have all these inside jokes and just sit there and rub it in his face, kind of like his wife did this morning when were texting back and forth and she was going on and on about them picking him up and how great of a job they did and fun it was to surprise him... I just wanted to either puke or scream or do both!!

Really?!?

I hate it when you are honest and then it comes back to bite you in the butt! So I have to report twice month to the unemployment office about working, how I am doing with applying for jobs, if I was able to. Well the weeks it asked about this last time were December 19 - January 1 my kids were out for Christmas. One of the questions were you able to work and I said no, childcare. (Which was an option and obviously wasn't a lie).

Well I get a message from them saying I need to call in order for my unemployment to process. I call. The woman says you checked no, why. I said the way the question was worded it there was no, I would have found childcare, if offered a job. So she changed it and it was processed. Money deposited.

Today we get a letter in the mail that says the claim has now been denied due to saying I didn't have childcare, not by the unemployment agency buy by my old employer and now that we have already received the money (and spent on bills) we have to pay them back! Can someone please tell me where we are going to come up with $815 to pay them back?

Plus the $250 I am going to pay to get just one of my 3 prescriptions tonight on top of the $75.80 it cost me just to go to the dr today???

Gosh I hope this job I interviewed for this week is the answer to our prayers!