Monday, March 27, 2006

Moms of boys...

This was an article in today's Dallas newspaper.
http://www.dallasnews.com/sharedcontent/dws/fea/solutions/stories/DN-nso_carpoolread_0320liv.ART.State.Edition1.9127204.html

All I can say it very true!!

Before I was a Mom...


Before I Was A Mom



Before I was a Mom, I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Spit on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Friday, March 10, 2006

You'd have to be blind...

To not notice that I changed my layout. I still like the old layout and may change it back. I was having some technically difficulties and the Blogger staff took care of them almost immediately and I appreciate that!

Let me know what you think of the new layout? Should I go back to the old one or stick with this one? Either one will include a picture of the boys!

Thursday, March 09, 2006

So....

I am not pregnant! I just came back from the dr. and I had an u/s. Nothing! HURRAY!! He checked me for ovarian cysts, I have a few small ones, but nothing to be worried about! Plus I really started today! What a relief!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

I updated

The boys' website!
www.logan.aboutmybaby.com

Just when things couldn't get any worse...

This is about my monthly visitor... Just know you have been forwarned!

I was supposed to start on Saturday. NOTHING. So I patiently, ok freaked out while waiting for aunt flo (AF) to start. On Monday still nothing. I took a pregnancy test during work on Monday. It was negetive. I took a test Tuesday morning with strong non-diluted urine, negetive.

At lunch on Tuesday I went to the bathroom. AF. Luckily I had a tampon. Get home, pee, remove tampon, NOTHING. WTH???

Last night I slept in a pad, NOTHING. Wore a tampon today, went to the bathroom at lunch, NOTHING.

What is going on? I am having some little twinges like cramps but nothing major. One of my friends IMs this to me:
Symptoms of Ectopic Pregnancy
symptoms of early pregnancy
spotting after first missed period
cramping after first missed period
pain or pelvic pressure
ultimately, severe uterine bleeding or hemorrhage

I sure hope this isn't it...

I called the dr. and of course his nurse tells me that he is in surgery today. So I have an appointment at 8 am tomorrow to figure out what is going on. Maybe hearing that I am seeing a doctor will just cause AF to make her grand appearance.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Who says you can't go home?

http://music.vidnet.com/player/23065/bon_jovi_who_says_you_cant_go_home_56.php

This song truly hit me today as I drove back to Abilene, the place I called home for almost 10 years. One day after my one year anniversary at my new job in a new city.

Driving through town seemed so surreal. I of course knew the roads by heart, but things looked different. There has been lots of new businesses built and restuarants opened. The crazyiest things was going to visit the folks at my old job.

I went to college and then got a job for the college I graduated with. I worked there for almost 5 years and last year I got a job at another college. Seeing my old coworkers was great. I miss them dearly. I felt like if I wanted to, I could have walked into my old office and pick-up where I left off a year ago. Everyone was kind of as stunned as me when we realized it had been one year since I had left.

Very bittersweet, I knew it was time to move on. We are super happy with our lives now, but I do miss those folks and they will always hold a special place in my heart. They were my family for almost 10 years and they helped to shape me into the person I am today. I will be forever grateful to those folks.