Can you say STRESSED!!!

That is me. I am so ready for the first half of summer to be over. I started my summer class last night that ends on June 29th. The prof hands our syllabus and I almost started crying!

We are required to read for every class, I can handle that, but we are also required to write a 2 page paper for every reading!! Hello, I am super busy writing 6 papers for my comps that are due July 6th. When I am going to find the time to read the chapters, write the papers, do 2 presentations and listen to an internantional radio station. And still be a mom and wife and good employee...

I know God will not give me more than I can handle but I think I am to my breaking point. AAAHHHHHHH...

And to top it all off, the boys were supposed to spend the week with my parents, Travis and I left Monday afternoon and came home. Well Logan started saying he wanted to go home so Mom drove them back last night... Travis and I were actually going to have a date tonight. NOPE... I guess it is good, since I have a million other things I need to do, but it would have been nice to be kid free so I could spend the evenings doing homework.

Also I leave for a conference on Friday and I am not back till Tuesday... Sleep, who has time for that???

HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I have been home with Logan this week due to his surgery. Well let's just say he is back to normal! Keeping him occupied has been hard work!

One way to keep him calm is let him watch a movie. Well he has picked he same one every day this week! It is a movie about tractors and trucks. It has a super annoying host and I am really tired of watching it! But it does keep Logan calm... But I am about to go crazy!

Updates...

Got my comps, just now have to find the time to do them!

Logan’s surgery went great yesterday. It didn’t start until 9:30 and it was supposed to start at 8am. He was starting to get a little grumpy because he was starving. The look of fear in his eyes as they rolled him to the OR was heartbreaking and he told us last night that was the part he didn’t like. He had taken a drug to relax him so he wouldn’t remember but I guess it hadn’t totally kicked in because he remembers. The surgery was very routine and he only had one hernia, they checked the other side as a precaution and it looked great. It took him a while to wake up from the anesthesia and he was being stubborn and didn’t want to drink. Which if anyone has had surgery, if you drink or eat a popsicle and it stays down, you can go. He kept saying I want to go home but wouldn’t drink. Finally we got to go home around 2pm. It was a long day. He slept most of the day. Had times of being uncomfortable, but this morning seemed much better.

I just don't get it...

First of all, still no comps.... Uh HELLO folks I am on a time crunch!

Secondly, Logan is having his surgery on Monday.

I am completely out of sick leave because I never have had time to earn it back after having Cole and every time a kid is sick or has to go to the dr. I use mine.

Travis has plenty. And he was asking me if I would rather him take off Monday or Tuesday.... Ugh hello BOTH!! Monday is the surgery and I would like him there with me and Tuesday Logan will have to stay home to recover and I really can't miss anymore work.

I said can't you do both, I don't know. I said ask!I just really made me want to cry. I mean I am already emotianally drained thinking about Monday, it just really pissed me off!

Getting Frustrated

This week I was suppose to receive my comps by email so I could begin these 6 papers that once writted determine if I will graduate in December. All 6 papers that will be 10-15 pages long must be completed by July 6th. That means I get 6 weeks to do them and guess what they are not here.

This week and next were the only weeks in the 6 weeks where I had free evenings to devote to these papers. I start summer school on May 30th and have a conference the first weekend of June in DC. I am busy and can't change my life for these papers. I just hope I can get them done! That is once I finally receive the topics!

Went to the dr.

I took Logan to the dr. and we left with referrals to both the pediatric surgeon and the pediatric dermatologist.

He does have a hernia so we now have to talk to the surgeon about the options.

He also has a growth on the back of his head that we are going to get checked out by the dermatologist. To me it looks like a mole that is just growing but it is soon going to get in the way of getting his hair cut. Poor baby, only 3 and his is already falling apart!

Mother's Day

Went great! I got a watch and two great cards from my kiddos.

Travis decided to put a handprint on Cole's and it stained Cole's hand green! It was so cute because he says you didn't tell me those inkpads stained!

We had a great day, I took Logan swimming while Cole napped, it was a nice relaxing day!

Changed my blog...

I have created a blog just for the surrogacy journey! Please follow along!

http://myjourney-surrogacy.blogspot.com/

Need some prayers.

In other news I am having to take Logan to the dr today. I think he has a hernia. Please pray for him as the only way to fix this is surgery.

Need some prayers.

I found out through my mom that Travis' mom has had to stop her treatment. She is still on chemo but one of the drugs she was using was for a trial and the trial is up. Right now it is only approved for colon cancer. The FDA has not approved it for other cancers. But MIL and the dr feel that this drug is what has caused her cancer to not grow. So now we just wait. MIL hasn't told Travis yet about this. I will tell him after they leave today. Once the FDA approves of the drug MIL insurance will pay for it, but right now the pill must be taken 3 times a day and each dose is $5,000! Can you believe that! I ask for prayer for her and the FDA to approve it.