So much to say...

Has it really been a month since Grace's passing?!?! It still seems so unbelievable. How did life just go back to normal? How did we just get up the next day, get dressed and go about the day to days... It just does not make sense to me. I know you are supposed to continue on with your life but it just seems unreal that it happened so quickly. I have been so proud of Travis and Larry for their ability to move on, but of course they could let their guard down when no one is around.

Which is what I did today as I drove the 2 and 1/2 hours from Lubbock to Amarillo, for work. I cried, the same way I am crying as I type this. Cried for the unfairness of life, cried because my boys no longer have a grandma, which I still have both of, by the way. Cried because my husband no longer has his mom. He was such a momma's boy and did everything he could to please her. Cried because Larry no longer has the love of his life. Cried because Christy and Grant's children will never know this strong woman, who would have been their grandma, who fought so hard to beat this terrible thing we call cancer. Cried for Bob who lost his whole family in less than 15 months to death. Cried for Ellen who is now lost because Grace was her glue. Grace was everyone's glue. I am so thankful that everyone made the trip to TX in May to celebrate Cole's birthday as that was the last time we were all together. Which is ironic because the year before at Cole's 1st birthday it was the last time we were all together before Travis' grandparents died.

The ironies of life and death...